This memorial website was created in the memory of our loved one, Justin Perkins who was born in Nevada on June 03, 1978 and passed away on November 02, 2006 at the age of 28. We will remember him forever. 


Thank you for stopping by Justin's Website. Before you go, please light a candle to keep his memory alive. The site will be constantly changing, so please come and visit periodically to say hello. If you have any memories or pictures to share, we would appreciate you sharing them here with us.

Justin was the baby boy of the family. He had 3 brothers and 2 sisters. He was a beautiful baby and grew into a handsome young man. As a child, he loved our annual family vacations and playing Pop Warner football. His favorite TV show was “Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles”. Even as a child he knew no strangers, he made friends easily with both children and adults. He made it a practice to help others and in second grade befriended a child who was severly burned- he was very upset that the other children were making fun of the boy. His teenage years were a little turbulent, and we were very familiar with the officers at the local police department, but he eventually began to turn things around. Then, one evening eight years prior to his death, he found four of his friends shot, execution style, at the home where he visited with them the previous evening. For eight long years, when he was asked to testify, he appeared in court to retell the story over and over again to make sure the murderer stayed in prison. Justin couldn’t bear the fact that he could not save his friends and he felt guilty that he survived and they didn’t. He didn’t want to go to counseling and tried to “tough it out” on his own, but the demons finally got to him. On the night of 11/1/06, he took his own life, leaving behind his legacy of giving of himself until he could give no more. He was kept on life support until 11/2/06 in order for his family to say goodbye to him. He gave in death as he gave in life by donating his organs to others. We love him and miss him so much, but know that he is free from his pain and is now with his friends in heaven.

Along with his immediate family, he leaves behind a beautiful daughter, Tracey Arianna, the light of his life.


"Those we have held in our arms for a little while, we hold in our hearts forever"




"It was not because of you I left, but because of you I stayed as long as I did"






"The time came when the pain it took to stay
was greater than the pain it took to go."



For more information about suicide go to:

http://www.suicidereferencelibrary.com/  


www.pos-ffos.com

"You can shed tears that he is gone, or you can smile because he has lived. You can close your eyes and pray that he'll come back, or you can open your eyes and see all he's left. Your heart can be empty because you can't see him, or you can be full of the love you shared. You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday, or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday. You can remember him only that he is gone, or you can cherish his memory and let it live on. You can cry and close your mind, be empty and turn your back. Or you can do what he'd want: smile, open your eyes, love and go on."
David Harkins

"When one who you love passes away, remember not the one day he succumbed to death, but the thousands he lived."
Author Unknown

What we have once enjoyed we can never lose;
All that we love deeply, becomes a part of us.
~Helen Keller~ 

When we lose a parent we lose our past
When we lose our spouse we lose our present
But when we lose a child we lose our future.

To Those Whom I Love and Those Who Love Me

When I am gone, release me, let me go
I have so many things to see and do
You must not tie yourself to me with tears
Be happy that I have had so many years

I gave you my love, you can only guess
How much you gave me in happiness
I think you for the love each have shown
But now it is time I traveled on alone

So grieve a while for me, if grieve you must
Then let your grief be comforted by trust
It is only for a while that we must part
So bless the memoriss in your heart

I will not be far away, for life goes on
So if you need me, call and I will come
Though you can not see or touch me, I will be near
And if you listen with your heart, you will hear
All of my love around you soft and clear

Then, when you must come this way alone
I will greet you with a smile and a "Welcome Home"

Mary Alice Ramish 
 

REST IN PEACE

You are not forgotten loved one
Nor will you ever be
As long as life and memory last
We will miss thee.
We will miss you now
Our hearts are sore
As time goes by
We miss you more
Your loving smile
Your gentle face
No one can fill your vacant place.
Author Unknown 

PRECIOUS CHILD 

Words by Karen Taylor-Good 

In my dreams, you are alive and well
Precious child, precious child
In my mind, I see you clear as a bell
Precious child, precious child
In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart, there is hope
'Cause you are with me still

In my heart, you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart

In my plans, I was the first to leave
Precious child, precious child
But in this world, I was left here to grieve
Precious child, my precious child

In my soul, there is a hole
That can never be filled
But in my heart there is hope
And you are with me still

In my heart you live on
Always there, never gone
Precious child, you left too soon,
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart

God knows I want to hold you,
See you, touch you
And maybe there's a heaven
And someday I will again
Please know you are not forgotten until then
In my heart you live on
Always there never gone
Precious child, you left too soon
Tho' it may be true that we're apart
You will live forever... in my heart

From the dawn of your birth
To the sunset of your death
I honor you.

From the missions you completed
To your duties left undone
I honor you.

From the seasons of your being
Through the cycle of your life
I honor you.

From your time beyond the veil
Lie your entrance back again
May the angels support you
May my healing love reach you
From this moment until the end of time
So Might It Be.

Silver RavenWolf 

Please Don’t Judge Me

“Don’t judge me for how I left this world,
Remember the love I gave
A lot of grief will follow me
For the decision that I made
Changes appear in everyone’s life
Some good, some bad
The one I chose for myself
Made everyone sad
But in time memories will heal the hurt of hearts
And my presence will be felt by all with an inner peace
Remember me when the sun is bright and laughter fills the air
And moonlit night and a whisper of wind
Will tell you I am there
Don’t look down on my family
Or fill their hearts with blame
For my leaving them without good-byes
They will never be the same
If I could go back in time
I’d say a last good-bye
I’d tell them to look to tomorrow
And for me…do not cry…”

Anonymous

There is a sacredness in tears.
They are not the mark of weakness,
but of power.
They speak more eloquently
than 10,000 tongues.
They are the messengers
of overwhelming grief,
of deep contrition,
and of unspeakable love.

- Washington Irving

Give me wings to fly above this pain
Give me hope to rise up and live again
Take my hand so I can touch the eagle and soar
Show me all the beauty I have too long ignored
High above the mountains I love so
Give me the wisdom to lead not to follow
Hear my plea that chants to you
Show me a path that is straight and true
Give me the wings to fly above this pain
Let me hold you in my heart until we are together once again.

Lifting you on eagle's wings, may you find the joy and peace you long for.
Life is a journey .. NOT a guided tour.

Author Unknown 

THE COCOON

A MAN FOUND A COCOON OF A BUTTERFLY.
One day a small opening appeared. He sat and
watched the butterfly for several hours as it struggled
to force its body through that little hole.
Then it seemed to stop making any progress. It
appeared as if it had gotten as far as it could, and
it could go no farther. Then the man decided to
help the butterfly. So he took a pair of scissors
and snipped off the remaining bit of the cocoon.
THE BUTTERFLY EMERGED EASILY.
But it had a swollen body and small, shriveled
wings. The man continued to watch the butterfly
because he expected that, at any moment, the
wings would enlarge and expand to be able to
support the body, which would contract in time.
Neither happened! in fact, the butterfly spent the
rest of its life crawling around with a swollen
body and shriveled wings.
IT WAS NEVER ABLE TO FLY.
What the man in his kindness and haste did not
understand was that the restricting cocoon and the
struggle required for the butterfly to get through
the tiny opening were Nature's way of forcing
fluid from the body of the butterfly into its wings
so that it would be ready for flight once it
achieved its freedom from the cocoon.
Sometimes struggles are exactly what we need in
our life. If we were allowed to go through our life
without any obstacles, it would cripple us. We
would not be as strong as what we could have
been.
AND WE WOULD NEVER FLY.
~ Author unknown 

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